A verse from a cover of a Will Oldham song, by Koz.... new partner:

Well, I would not have moved if I knew you were here
Its some special action with motives unclear
Now you'll haunt me, you'll haunt me
Till I've paid for what I've done
It's a payment which precludes the having of fun

The line about "i would not have moved if I knew you were here" is so beautiful, prods the smile tear machine every time.

The memories that are good, the ones that remind me why I loved you, often involve you laying on me, against me. I set about studying your skin like it was to be decoded.

Last night, as C graduated pre-school, I caught a glimpse of your bare left arm and a freckle- I remembered it, but oddly didn't.

If you didn't move, I wouldn't have known you were there.