Going North then South

By the time i reached the Massachusetts and Vermont border, it came to me that we would no longer be husband and wife again. The feeling was so clear I was taken aback by it; i had to question whether or not it came from me or to me, as it was so uncomfortable.

Then a memory, a small one. I have had hundreds of them over the last few weeks, some purposely summoned as a way to check myself. None of them made me regret what i did, but this one caused me to remember in a way I hadn't before.

That jaded story about my encounter while away at a conference where I decided to not stay overnight with a woman who had had a boyfriend, in spite of tremendous symbiosis between us. For this, I spent months feeling like an idiot, the last ethical being on earth.

Then you came to me, and it was so clear that you were my gift from the universe, the ultimate karmic reward. Why else would a woman so intelligent, creative and overwhelmingly lovely want to be with me?